Monday, September 5, 2011
pintrest
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Thursday, August 11, 2011
Holy Moly Batman!!!
So I guess I should update everyone on what has happened over the last few months. Welllll.... Denver chewed us up and spit us out! We moved back to SLC in June and then I got a job as a social worker right away! So I started a week after we moved to Utah, I've been working for over a month now and I like to place. Taylor is also liking his job. Elliott has entered the "terrible 2" he will be fine one second and then just burst out of anger, frustration or fits of crying. It feel like I'm living with a teenager, just cuter! Potty-training got set back with all the transitions we have had... we are still working on it. But at least he insists that his potato man go in the potty (see pic below).
We continue to settle in.... it is at least starting to feel real, there are still some day that I think about going to a place or eating somewhere and realize that I'm not in Denver! I will post pics of our cute place, Tay and I love the location and we are right next to a park so I can continue to run.
Does anyone else feel like this summer had just flown by? Can it really be August?
Saturday, June 18, 2011
Transitions
"People have to start with endings- letting go of whatever it is time to let go of- before they can make new beginnings" - William Bridges
And that is what I have been doing this last month... ending my time as a Grad student, school counselor, relationship with my clients, friends and own therapist..... I'm ending the life I have built here in Colorado in order to start a new beginning in Utah. It's weird because I realize Colorado is where I became myself, where I grew up and now I'm going back to the beginning, the place I left, so I can become grounded again. However, I feel like I'm coming back from war, changed.. forever and I wonder how I will "fit in" to the old system as my new self. How will people receive me, will I regress to old ways? It's hard to move on, all the while moving on to an old familiar place... but I have change inwardly and the external change serve as a symbol... a new stage of development. I think of the quote I put on my grad announcements by T.S. Eliot "and the end of all our exploring will be to arrive where we started and know the place for the first time." How very literal this is for me right now, what an interesting and exciting idea of coming back to "home" and knowing it for the first time.
p.s. does anyone read this anymore? My account has been weird for awhile, so leave a comment just so know it's viewable!
And that is what I have been doing this last month... ending my time as a Grad student, school counselor, relationship with my clients, friends and own therapist..... I'm ending the life I have built here in Colorado in order to start a new beginning in Utah. It's weird because I realize Colorado is where I became myself, where I grew up and now I'm going back to the beginning, the place I left, so I can become grounded again. However, I feel like I'm coming back from war, changed.. forever and I wonder how I will "fit in" to the old system as my new self. How will people receive me, will I regress to old ways? It's hard to move on, all the while moving on to an old familiar place... but I have change inwardly and the external change serve as a symbol... a new stage of development. I think of the quote I put on my grad announcements by T.S. Eliot "and the end of all our exploring will be to arrive where we started and know the place for the first time." How very literal this is for me right now, what an interesting and exciting idea of coming back to "home" and knowing it for the first time.
p.s. does anyone read this anymore? My account has been weird for awhile, so leave a comment just so know it's viewable!
Sunday, May 8, 2011
I done graduated!
This weekend I finally graduated. Most of my family came out for the event, including Mom and Dad, Kim, Kris, Kira, Curtis and my mother and father-in-law. It was a fast, fun, tiring weekend and I am ready to rest!
Monday, May 2, 2011
Things are getting crazy up in here
Holy Moly I'm graduating this Friday!!!
Can you believe I have been in school for 3 years!!! Remember when I got accepted into Naropa Grad Program? Who knew when I said it would be a challenge and I would have ups and downs..that it would include: working full-time and going to school full-time for two years, having a baby, all the while doing intensive personal depth work!! FFFFEEEWW... I'm tired.
I've explore many parts of this world, but never really explore parts of myself. These last three years have been dedicated to taking a deeper look at myself.... there is a quote by John Welwood that sums up my experience, " Only when we slow down and really see and feel our distress can it have an impact on us. Then our pain can begin to awaken our desire and will to live in a new way." It wasn't all painful... I had some silly, fun times as well and I know my self exploration has not ended, it never will.
Now it seems another change comes, time of transition. I feel a little lost now that I have accomplished my goal. I feel very much in a neutral zone between ending and beginning. Finishing what I've done and not knowing what I will do. These are the times when I feel a weird kind of trust in allowing whatever needs to happen, happen and also nervousness about the unknown. It's also a time when things come together and are created in a sort-of fast, dream like way. All I know is I'm ready to take a breath.... a lllloooooonnnnngggg DEEP breath.
Can you believe I have been in school for 3 years!!! Remember when I got accepted into Naropa Grad Program? Who knew when I said it would be a challenge and I would have ups and downs..that it would include: working full-time and going to school full-time for two years, having a baby, all the while doing intensive personal depth work!! FFFFEEEWW... I'm tired.
I've explore many parts of this world, but never really explore parts of myself. These last three years have been dedicated to taking a deeper look at myself.... there is a quote by John Welwood that sums up my experience, " Only when we slow down and really see and feel our distress can it have an impact on us. Then our pain can begin to awaken our desire and will to live in a new way." It wasn't all painful... I had some silly, fun times as well and I know my self exploration has not ended, it never will.
Now it seems another change comes, time of transition. I feel a little lost now that I have accomplished my goal. I feel very much in a neutral zone between ending and beginning. Finishing what I've done and not knowing what I will do. These are the times when I feel a weird kind of trust in allowing whatever needs to happen, happen and also nervousness about the unknown. It's also a time when things come together and are created in a sort-of fast, dream like way. All I know is I'm ready to take a breath.... a lllloooooonnnnngggg DEEP breath.
Saturday, March 26, 2011
Potty Training Begins
A few months ago Elliott started to become interested in the toilet. So we have slowly been introducing him to potty training since then. He went once in the toilet and the rest of the time he tells me when he has gone in his diaper and we set him on the potty and he gets a potty treat. He also has a potty training book that he likes to ready while on the toilet.
We had a set back last month when he went to the bathroom on the ground... it freaked him out to see his own poop! He ran out of my room screaming "GROSS!!!" He has regress a little since then, but I can't wait for this summer when I will let him loose in the backyard with only his b-day suit on and he can run free to poop and pee as he pleases! HA!
Elliott in his big boys... you can't tell they are toy story undies, but loves woody and buzz
Elliott reading his potty book
Elliott after he unraveled the toilet paper roll
We had a set back last month when he went to the bathroom on the ground... it freaked him out to see his own poop! He ran out of my room screaming "GROSS!!!" He has regress a little since then, but I can't wait for this summer when I will let him loose in the backyard with only his b-day suit on and he can run free to poop and pee as he pleases! HA!
Elliott in his big boys... you can't tell they are toy story undies, but loves woody and buzz
Elliott reading his potty book
Elliott after he unraveled the toilet paper roll
Monday, February 28, 2011
The power of vulnerability
Brene Brown: The power of vulnerability | Video on TED.com
If you have some time listen to this talk, it's such a good example of self compassion and healing. This talk explains a lot for what I have learned in the past 3 years training in transpersonal counseling psychology. Someday I hope to be able to be part of the wholehearted.... baby steps I suppose.
If you have some time listen to this talk, it's such a good example of self compassion and healing. This talk explains a lot for what I have learned in the past 3 years training in transpersonal counseling psychology. Someday I hope to be able to be part of the wholehearted.... baby steps I suppose.
Hang in there!
Winter madness.... thank goodness February is coming to an end and now we just have to get through Smarch (no not a spelling error). In the past, this is when I would schedule a sweet get away... but that is not happening this year. So to keep my spirits up here is an awesome picture of Elliott with his crazy hair....
That face expresses exactly how i feel during this time of year.
Hang in there Elliott!!!
That face expresses exactly how i feel during this time of year.
Hang in there Elliott!!!
Tuesday, February 22, 2011
All I have to say right now
Denver, I Love You But You're Bringing Me Down
Taken from LCD Soundsystem's album, Sound of Silver but instead of New York it's Denver: I feel Denver pushing me out and I feel happy to oblige.
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Denver, I love you but you're bringing me down
Like a rat in a cage, pulling minimum wage
Denver, I love you but you're bringing me down
Denver, you're safer and you're wasting my time
Our records all show you are filthy but fine
But they shuttered your stores when you opened the doors
To the cops who were bored once they'd run out of crime
Denver, you're perfect don't, please, don't change a thing
Your mild billionaire mayor's now convinced he's a king
And so the boring collect, I mean all disrespect
In the neighborhood bars I'd once dreamt I would drink
Denver, I love you but you're freaking me out
There's a ton of the twist but we're fresh out of shout
Like a death in the hall that you hear through your wall
Denver, I love you but you're freaking me out
Denver, I love you but you're bringing me down
Denver, I love you but you're bringing me down
Like a death of the heart. Jesus, where do I start?
But you're still the one pool where I'd happily drown
And oh.. Take me off your mailing list
For kids that think it still exists
Yes, for those who think it still exists
Maybe I'm wrong
And maybe you're right
Maybe I'm wrong
And myabe you're right
Maybe you're right
Maybe I'm wrong
And just maybe you're right
And Oh..
Maybe mother told you true
And they're always be something there for you
And you'll never be alone
But maybe she's wrong
And maybe I'm right
And just maybe she's wrong
Maybe she's wrong
And maybe I'm right
And if so, is there?
Tuesday, February 15, 2011
Love
Love by John Lennon... such as good song. I sang it to Elliott last night before bed for Valentines day. He fell asleep a happy content baby.
I know there is controversy surrounding Yoko and Johns relationship. I always thought it was beautiful. They were in love, introspective and damn the world if you didn't like it.
Oh, plus Taylor and my song is Oh Yoko! Which is a very cute love shout out from John to his lady.
love.............
I know there is controversy surrounding Yoko and Johns relationship. I always thought it was beautiful. They were in love, introspective and damn the world if you didn't like it.
Oh, plus Taylor and my song is Oh Yoko! Which is a very cute love shout out from John to his lady.
love.............
Sunday, February 13, 2011
Doily Installation
I LOVE this street art doily installation... the use of doilies in a "weblike" manner gets me all jazzed up! The thought of walking past something like this while I'm strolling on the beach kind of sounds magical... that's right Taylor I said MAGICAL!!! (I must admit I think just the thought of walking on a regular, no web doily beach sounds magical right now). All I want is for my mother to teach me how to make doilies now!
Friday, February 4, 2011
Hello out there
I don't know if you have noticed a lack of writing the past few months.....in fact I don't know if anyone even reads my blog, but I use it as a type of journal so it's mostly for me anyway.
I know I've been a little slow on the updates of my life. I am currently finishing up my last semester at Naropa and also my internship. Which takes up a lot of time and at the same time seems less hectic then other semesters. I'm taking some interesting classes this semester including career development (where we explore or personal career aspirations and also how to work with clients who are seeking career changes) and meditation- exploring self compassion and we are reading an excellent book called The mindful path to self-compassion. It's an easy read with great meditation/self reflection exercises.
In true Wilsure fashion everything changes in blink of an eye around here. Taylor's contract for hire job ended and we are left trying to figure out what that means financially and career wise for our family in the future. I'm also starting to think about applying for jobs, since when the semester ends I'll need one fast!! Taylor is thinking about a career change and talk about planets aligning since this is the class I'm taking right now! He is thinking about teaching... so we will see where that leads. One thing we both agree on is that copywriter is just not a steady, career choice and it's time for a change.
If I have learned one thing in the past few years it is the only thing you can count on is the impermanence in life.
I know I've been a little slow on the updates of my life. I am currently finishing up my last semester at Naropa and also my internship. Which takes up a lot of time and at the same time seems less hectic then other semesters. I'm taking some interesting classes this semester including career development (where we explore or personal career aspirations and also how to work with clients who are seeking career changes) and meditation- exploring self compassion and we are reading an excellent book called The mindful path to self-compassion. It's an easy read with great meditation/self reflection exercises.
In true Wilsure fashion everything changes in blink of an eye around here. Taylor's contract for hire job ended and we are left trying to figure out what that means financially and career wise for our family in the future. I'm also starting to think about applying for jobs, since when the semester ends I'll need one fast!! Taylor is thinking about a career change and talk about planets aligning since this is the class I'm taking right now! He is thinking about teaching... so we will see where that leads. One thing we both agree on is that copywriter is just not a steady, career choice and it's time for a change.
If I have learned one thing in the past few years it is the only thing you can count on is the impermanence in life.
