Transitions

"People have to start with endings- letting go of whatever it is time to let go of- before they can make new beginnings" - William Bridges

And that is what I have been doing this last month... ending my time as a Grad student, school counselor, relationship with my clients, friends and own therapist..... I'm ending the life I have built here in Colorado in order to start a new beginning in Utah. It's weird because I realize Colorado is where I became myself, where I grew up and now I'm going back to the beginning, the place I left, so I can become grounded again. However, I feel like I'm coming back from war, changed.. forever and I wonder how I will "fit in" to the old system as my new self. How will people receive me, will I regress to old ways? It's hard to move on, all the while moving on to an old familiar place... but I have change inwardly and the external change serve as a symbol... a new stage of development. I think of the quote I put on my grad announcements by T.S. Eliot "and the end of all our exploring will be to arrive where we started and know the place for the first time." How very literal this is for me right now, what an interesting and exciting idea of coming back to "home" and knowing it for the first time.

p.s. does anyone read this anymore? My account has been weird for awhile, so leave a comment just so know it's viewable!