Things are getting crazy up in here

Holy Moly I'm graduating this Friday!!!
Can you believe I have been in school for 3 years!!! Remember when I got accepted into Naropa Grad Program? Who knew when I said it would be a challenge and I would have ups and downs..that it would include: working full-time and going to school full-time for two years, having a baby, all the while doing intensive personal depth work!! FFFFEEEWW... I'm tired.

I've explore many parts of this world, but never really explore parts of myself. These last three years have been dedicated to taking a deeper look at myself.... there is a quote by John Welwood that sums up my experience, " Only when we slow down and really see and feel our distress can it have an impact on us. Then our pain can begin to awaken our desire and will to live in a new way." It wasn't all painful... I had some silly, fun times as well and I know my self exploration has not ended, it never will.

Now it seems another change comes, time of transition. I feel a little lost now that I have accomplished my goal. I feel very much in a neutral zone between ending and beginning. Finishing what I've done and not knowing what I will do. These are the times when I feel a weird kind of trust in allowing whatever needs to happen, happen and also nervousness about the unknown. It's also a time when things come together and are created in a sort-of fast, dream like way. All I know is I'm ready to take a breath.... a lllloooooonnnnngggg DEEP breath.